this delusion in our heads is gonna bring us to our knees
I gave myself permission to feel and experience all of my emotions. In order to do that, I had to stop being afraid to feel. In order to do that, I taught myself to believe that no matter what I felt or what happened when I felt it, I would be okay.
so this summer i allowed myself to fall head over heals for a boy. a boy that never in a million years i thought i could have because he had a girlfriend. so, since i am a decent person i just remained friends with him. have you ever been in love with someone and you cared so much about them you just stayed friends? well these past 5 months we’ve been the best of friends. i’ve lived in the friend zone and i’ve been fine with it. i’ve wanted and waited until finally he realized he was never happy dating this girl and they broke up…well today we went on our first date and kissed for the first time.
i hope this reminds you to be patient and that timing is timing and whenever it is right, or if it ever is then you’ll get exactly what you want !!!!!!
This day last year we spent hours talking about what we’ll name our children someday and where our house will be, today I don’t even know how to say hello. It really is crazy how much can change in 365 days.
I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much you enjoy them and their existence.
I hope she makes you laugh. And I hope she knows the right ways to calm you down when you temper gets out of hand and all you can see is red. Dear god, your eyes were so blue. I hope she helps you see that. I hope she knows how to just hold you because you needed that a lot. I hope you can talk to her about God and what’s wrong and right. I hope she knows how to love you better than I did.
-C.C.
clownit14
Anonymous asked:
It doesn’t really matter tbh, just the matter of him being happy is all that matters. It doesn’t matter who’s the “better” person or who everyone says he should be with. Not about what everyone else wants. If he’s happy with someone it shouldn’t matter who they are.
